why are we allowed to write about our issues only once we've resolved them?

Dear writer. You don't need to write from a heroic place all the time (if ever, actually). You are not obligated to be a guru or a role-model or a hyper-educated member of society in order to create art. You can write from a flawed place, a conflicted place, a dark place, an "unlikable" place, a deleriously happy place, a deep place, a fun place, a serious place, a critical place, a self-deprecating place, a reckless place. You can write from whatever place you want to write from. And all these essays where everyone is trying to pretend that they're perfect angels who do no wrong, are fucking boring. (They are!). Writers are historically bizarre, conflicted characters. All creatives are. For you're so much more interesting when you're in the middle of crawling through the mud. You're so much more interesting when you're still figuring it all out. You're so much more interesting when you're real. 

Demons/Shadow

“Then I repeated these words to my spirits: 'Leave me be; give me peace; and let me do the work of my life. I will never forget you.' Something about that incantation was particularly appealing to me. 'I will never forget you'-- as though one had to address the pride of the spirits, as though one wanted them to feel good about being exorcised.”

Address your demons with 8 Cs:

CURIOSITY

COMPASSION

CARE

CALM

CONFIDENCE

CREATIVITY

COURAGE

CONECTEDNESS

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Knees

People with an inflated ego develop knee pain. Take a look at the world -- it does not revolve around you. Show care for your loved ones, and be there when they need you.

According to the American Institute of Stress:

Paradoxies

“My friend’s mom has eaten healthy all her life. Never ever consumed alcohol or any “bad” food, exercised every day, very limber, very active, took all supplements suggested by her doctor, never went in the sun without sunscreen and when she did it was for as short a period as possible — so pretty much she protected her health with the utmost that anyone could. She is now 76 and has skin cancer, bone marrow cancer and extreme osteoporosis.

My friend’s father eats bacon on top of bacon, butter on top of butter, fat on top of fat, never and I mean never exercised, was out in the sun burnt to a crisp every summer, he basically took the approach to live life to his fullest and not as others suggest. He is 81 and the doctors says his health is that of a young person.

People you cannot hide from your poison. It’s out there and it will find you so in the words of my friend’s still living mother: “If I would have known my life would end this way I would have lived it more to the fullest enjoying everything I was told not to!”

None of us are getting out of here alive, so please stop treating yourself like an after thought. Eat the delicious food. Walk in the sunshine. Jump in the ocean. Say the truth that you’re carrying in your heart like hidden treasure. Be silly. Be kind. Be weird. There’s no time for anything else.”

Keanu

Love Desire and ever more

Love

Security

Belonging

Rootedness

Predictibility

Safety

Desire

Adventure

Novelty

Change

Transcendance

Transgression

Alieveness

Affair

Feeling of aliveness

Act of transgression

It’s not an act of sex, its energy, you have to have the erotic energy of aliveness that comes with the fantasy which comes with the fantasy of affair.

Desire is about

1. Feeling important
2. Feeling seen
3. Feeling desired
4. Having someone’s attention back on you

If you are attracted by the gaze of another it isn’t because you want to leave the person you are with, it is because you want to leave the person that you have yourself become. There is no greater other than the different version of yourself.

Sensitiv

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Haushofer Princeton's Professor listed cv of failures

The document contains sections titled Degree programs I did not get into, Research funding I did not get and Paper rejections from academic journals.

It also includes Academic positions and fellowships I did not get and Awards and scholarships I did not get.